Recently I did something stupid, I won’t bother mentioning what since I do a lot of stupid things. But well, this specific time made me think I deserve punishment. Or pain, or something for it.
Which, nO, wrong, never. Don’t ever try to punish yourself.
I don’t care how irrational you are, but the moment you let someone hurt you or hurt yourself on purpose and think “well I deserve it”, you need to stop and just know that you’re wrong. I don’t know much, but I know that that’s wrong. You don’t get to decide the pain you deserve or is inflicted upon you. Life and such will decide for you and all you have to do is deal with it.
The moment you start punishing yourself, you lose all self respect and control over your actions. Suddenly you start recording how much you do wrong and how much pain you should be getting in return. Suddenly anyone who hurts you is justified in it, that’s plain wrong. You could be completely fucked in the head but even you can’t not to acknowledge this fact.
It’s wrong, wrong, wrong. And you may be restless and emotional, and irrational in that moment, but all you need to do, is understand this and stop. No matter what you convince yourself of, you do not deserve pain. You don’t get to decide that, none of us do.
Twenty one pilots are right (why so many?) You are in control. You can stop.
self inflicted punishment is a load of bullcrap. it won’t help you stop making mistakes, it’ll just increase your pain tolerance because you feel like you deserve it for making them. In fact you won’t mind the mistakes that much after because well, what’s another mistake anyway? Another lash on your arm? Tough. It won’t help even a tiny bit, not as much as addressing the problem and trying to actually deal with it like a rational human being. Things won’t change overnight, over a paragraph. Work for it you twit, understand what you’re doing is stupid, learn how to stop, look up alternatives and once you are able to minimise it, learn proper ways of dealing with your emotions. Here’s the stages of change I copied from psych central or something to make this seem a bit more legit bye
The six stages of change are:
see i’m not entirely talking out of my ass